“Why, Why?”

My lips quivered as Zachary’s fingers pressed deeply inside me. He deliberately licked my scrotum while pushing his hand in deeper.

“Ah, there, ugh, ugh.”

Another finger joined in the narrow space. It hurt so much. I clung to Zachary, groaning in pain. Why was he pushing his hand in there…? The thought crossed my mind that he might tear me apart. Despite struggling, the probing touch brought about a strange sensation. Each time his fingers thrust in and out, my hips trembled involuntarily. Then, when his fingers pressed a particular spot deep inside…

“Ugh, uh!”

I clamped my mouth shut.

No way. Did that sound just come out of my mouth?

I was mortified by the high-pitched moan that escaped my lips.

Wide-eyed in shock, I looked at Zachary. Our eyes met, and I realized he had been watching my face intently from the beginning.

And what was that sensation just now? In my confusion, Zachary continued to touch me more persistently. He pressed his fingertips against the spot he had stimulated earlier and pushed again.

“Huff, ugh, uh…”

I twisted my body at the sharp sensation that shot through me. I had no control over my reactions; my body moved on its own. Everything up until now had been mere child’s play compared to this.

“Do you like it here?”

How did Zachary know about this? Unlike my astonishment, he chuckled lowly, seemingly pleased.

My vision alternated between going white and returning to normal. My thighs trembled uncontrollably, unable to muster any strength. I gripped the blanket beside me with trembling hands.

If I didn’t hold on to something, it felt like I would fall into a deep abyss. The dizzying sensations churned within me.

“Young Master.”

Amid my groans, Zachary called out to me. But I couldn’t muster the presence of mind to face him properly. Another finger slipped inside. The pleasure far outweighed the pain, and I found myself quivering uncontrollably. Zachary sighed with a hint of amusement.

He gently grasped my now-erect member with one hand, while the fingers probing my rear were rough and relentless, causing me to pant heavily. When I managed to glance at his face, his blue eyes seemed to blaze.

“Will you get married with a body like this?”

Despite his proper and respectful tone, his gaze was endlessly wild.

“Huff, huff.”

In an instant, my lower body became a mess from the semen I had just released. He swept up the pre-cum and pushed it all inside me. His fingers entered more easily than before, and as the stimulation increased, I let out a small moan. Then he spread his fingers wide.

“Ah, ahh!”

I couldn’t believe it. I had just climaxed in his mouth, yet I came again as if it were nothing.

My vision blurred like mist and then slowly returned. Shivering from the intense stimulation, I gasped with my mouth open.

The sensation hadn’t faded, and I grabbed his hand in a panic. I wanted to shout for him to stop, but I froze.

I saw Zachary’s enraged, erect member.

‘No way.’

Even though I had lived in ignorance of sex, I couldn’t be clueless about what was coming next.

Until now, we had only rubbed our members against each other and ejaculated. But the thought of inserting that inside me had never crossed my mind. I thought Zachary felt the same…

‘Really, never?’

Suddenly, I remembered how Zachary had been particularly touchy around my buttocks lately.

“No, no, I can’t do this.”

But this was too much. Inserting something like that could be catastrophic. It seemed physically impossible.

“Young Master.”

Zachary, watching my pale face, lowered his eyes.

“It’s too cold, please hold me…”

Then he slid down and rubbed his head against my chest.

His vulnerable appearance made my heart soften again. Whenever he was dragged to the Marquis, he would always cling to me like this… His fine black hair fell onto my chest. Zachary gently caressed my nipples.

Having been bitten and pinched in that area for days, my sensitive chest felt a prickling sensation at his touch. But now, it felt more intense than just painful. As he moved his fingers slowly inside me, he spoke.

“It’s so warm inside here.”

“Ugh.”

“I want to be inside you, Young Master. Please allow me.”

Both the sensation and Zachary, who created it, were overwhelmingly stimulating. He moved from caressing my nipples with his hands to sucking and biting them with his mouth. He seemed as though he wouldn’t proceed without my permission, solely depending on my decision.

Gradually, my mind turned blank.

‘I…’

Yet, Zachary subtly pressured my decision. He continuously stroked my belly with his large, rough hands. The warmth spread throughout my body.

The person I love wants to be inside me. Who could refuse that? I also wanted to be closer to Zachary.

‘I know we shouldn’t be doing this…’

But at the same time, I felt guilty. My mind was a mess even in this brief moment.

Zachary looked at me with eyes full of affection. His gaze seemed to say it didn’t matter what I thought. My selfish desire to become one with him grew stronger.

“Young Master.”

Zachary called me with a thirst, as if he couldn’t wait any longer to hold me. My own mouth went dry.

‘How much of this is your true feeling?’

The question I always had when facing Zachary surfaced again. But at this moment, he seemed to be confronting me with all his heart. Even if it was just my delusion…

‘I’m sorry.’

In the end, knowing I would regret this decision one day, I reached out to him.

‘I love you, Zachary.’

Swallowing words I couldn’t express, I hugged him tightly.

In response to my insignificant action, Zachary’s eyes seemed to blaze with renewed intensity.

“Please, be gentle… hick.”

I couldn’t even finish my proper words of permission.

As if waiting, Zachary’s member pressed into my entrance. Even with three fingers, it had been tight, but now that huge member was entering me.

The thought that it was impossible and the pain that felt like my body was splitting in half made me tremble all over.

He kissed me as I struggled to make a sound. I felt Zachary enter me slowly but steadily. He seemed to be in pain as well. He groaned lowly, and his brow furrowed deeply.

“Kk, ugh…”

No way.

“It hurts, ah, hurts.”

It hurts. It hurts so much. How do people even do this?

Just then, Zachary grabbed my member. The moment his fingertips touched my extremely sensitive organ, I flinched. He lightly gripped and released it before thrusting his own member in deeply.

“Ha!”

As his member plunged deep inside, it also scraped against the spot that had given me that strange sensation earlier. For a moment, I felt like I lost consciousness. It was both extremely painful and strange. Gagging with my mouth open, I felt him licking every drop of saliva that trickled out while he moaned.

“Zachary, Zachary…”

Frantically reaching out, I grabbed him. He naturally intertwined his fingers with mine. There was no composure on Zachary’s face. Sweating and flushed, he smiled.

“Don’t move… ugh!”

Even the slightest movement felt like my insides were tearing apart. It was amazing that something so big could fit inside me. I feared that with each movement, his member would burst through my belly.

But what drove me crazy the most was when he thrust in deeply. Each time he pressed that spot, I trembled and clung to him. He embraced me and spoke softly.

“Young Master, ha, please relax a little. I don’t want to hurt you.”

I shook my head repeatedly, tears streaming down as I tried to comply.

“I… I am relaxed.”

I knew. If I tensed up, it would only hurt more.

So I tried to consciously relax, but it was useless. I didn’t want to cry, but tears came out on their own. As I sniffled, Zachary bit my nose.

Despite my face being a mess, I couldn’t believe he was looking at me with such loving eyes. He intertwined his fingers with mine again, naturally spreading my legs with our clasped hands. It felt even more humiliating to feel like I was spreading my own legs.

“I… I… ugh, this feels weird.”

As my legs slowly opened, Zachary began to enter deeper.

I trembled and begged him to stop for a moment, but he just kept kissing my face repeatedly. Alternating between light, ticklish kisses and deep, passionate ones.

Every time he moved, strange sounds escaped my mouth, making me feel embarrassed.

“I don’t… like this. Stop now…”

“Young Master, you can’t lie, can you?”

Zachary whispered into my ear, breathing heavily. Then he tapped my member with his fingertips. Following his touch with my eyes, I saw my member standing erect again. I looked at my own center in disbelief. I had already ejaculated twice, so how could I get hard again…?

“Ah!”

But there was no time to think. He started moving his hips quickly. It was a deep thrust that felt like he was scraping my insides. It hurt. It hurt so much…!

“Hng, ah, hng!”

At the same time, it was maddeningly pleasurable. It was a pleasure I had never experienced before. My body was drenched with some unknown fluid, whether it was sweat or saliva. The intense movements had long since broken our handclasp. As I reached out, Zachary embraced me. His forehead, continually kissing me, was also now wet with sweat.

A sharp sensation of climax rushed over me. I panted, feeling as if I was about to ejaculate again. Zachary, too, moved his hips fiercely as if to plant himself deep within me. Under him, I looked up at the ceiling in a daze. I could see the ceiling painting.

Since experiencing nightmares as a child, I hadn’t looked closely at the ceiling before going to sleep. The ceiling painting, with its many interwoven images, depicted a beautiful, peaceful world on one side and a ferocious, cruel world on the other.

As my vision blurred, a corner of the painting suddenly came into focus. It appeared to show a festive scene, but in reality, it was demons rejoicing as they cut off an angel’s head.

Yet, it wasn’t only the demons who were jubilant. If you looked closely, even the angel being beheaded was.

“I was always cold, but now I’m warm…”

“Ugh, hng, uh!”

Smiling.

“Young Master, I love you…”

Even as his head was being severed by a demon.

“I love you so much.”

Along with the electrifying sensation down my spine, Zachary and I climaxed simultaneously. I writhed in ecstasy, trying to hold him even closer. Despite his claims of being cold, his body, pressed against mine, was scorching hot. It felt like it was going to burn my entire body.